A little white Buddha
“DEFINITE KNOWINGOF
THE JOURNEY AHEAD”
“mum, there’s two of us in here”
“we’d be fine and
I didn’t need to worry”
“My friend said jokingly
that I must be pregnant…”
“I am held, I am working to a divine plan, and we are all loved”.
“I have had three unmedicated home births with our three children, so I'm no stranger to the natural processes of birth by now. My first two labours were the longer of the three (but still only 12hr and 14hrs from start to finish) and attended by visiting midwives for the duration of active labour. With our third child the four-hour labour was intense from the get go, and a large portion of active labour was done without midwives in attendance.
With Alys's labour I was awoken with intense contractions around 5am, and from experience, I knew to let my husband know this was the real deal and not to hang about getting the midwives here. They did still take at least an hour to arrive, though.
I got up soon after waking and continued to labour in the bedroom on the birthing ball at the foot of the bed. With the other children being early risers, my husband would periodically tend to their needs downstairs before returning to support me. It was during one of these brief moments alone before the midwives arrived, that I heard a voice in my head that told me to go for a wee as there'd be a big enough gap between the next two contractions to go wee and to get back to my birthing ball where I was comfortable and in control. Trusting that this voice had my best interests at heart, I endeavoured to do what I was told - the advice was entirely accurate, and I was grateful for the heads up.
I continued labouring listening to a Bansuri playlist on Spotify, and a bit later the voice told me in no uncertain terms to "get the bucket". It was repeated a couple of times until I did as I was told, despite at the time thinking it was unnecessary as I wasn't nauseated at all. I brought the bucket we'd prepared nearer to where I was bouncing. Following the next contraction, which had intensified substantially from the one previous, I was very glad that I'd listened to the voice again as I was indeed sick with little other warning. I was again grateful for the heads up from wherever it came, and knew instinctively that my third home birth would be as blissful, instinctive and powerful as the other two before it.
Alys peacefully arrived within 4 hours of my waking, still in her intact amniotic sac, and the two midwives that were in attendance snuck away for an emotional cry soon after due to how lovely an experience it was for them to be part of.
At the time of this pregnancy I hadn't begun my journey of spiritual development, nor was I aware of the mediumistic intuitive gift I have since developed, but at the time I was still able to happily accept the voice as some sort of sage guidance spoken from the Universe, and questioned it not.
— Sarah Ward, Wales, UK
Connecting with a child before conception?
At the age of 39, I had finally gathered the strength to escape from an extremely abusive marriage of 20 years. I had two very much-loved blue-eyed boys from this union who were now growing into young men. to put this into context all of my family had blue eyes, myself, my mom and dad, my brother, and all of my cousins. I was used to gazing into blue eyes!
At this point, I didn’t have a partner or any expectations of a future relationship.
Shortly after, when staying overnight at my parents’ home, I had an amazing ‘dream’. A vision came to me of a beautiful brown-eyed, person’s face. I knew the energy was male. I so beautifully dark and deep that I can't fully describe the incredible power of this moving experience. the eyes were the focal point, they were so warm and loving and all-encompassing it was something that touched my soul and at this time I really did not know what this meant apart from the fact that it moved me deeply, touched my heart, and was so comforting.
One month before my 40th birthday I was introduced, via a friend, to the true love of my life. this was so unexpected, and we connected on a deep level immediately, we were indeed soul mates. because of my age, we both accepted that having a child would be out of the question.
However, 6 months later I was pregnant! we married without hesitation as we knew we wanted to be with each other for the rest of our lives and beyond. the pregnancy went amazingly well and we were blessed with a healthy and beautiful son. as soon as I looked into our son’s eyes I knew this was the vision I had been blessed with two years before. his eyes were the same as I had seen in my dream; huge, brown, and so dark, dark as coal and so full of love.
This is something when I look back on, I can't explain, but I accept it for what it is. my son wasn't even an embryo when I had this powerful dream, but I believe he was with me, even before his conception.
— Glynis Lazenby, Wales, UK